Thank You

Thanks to all of the readers who made a commment, either on blogger or facebook, on my post "Don't Give Up". It means so much to me to have wonderful women in my life to help me get through this transitional phase. Amelia has been sleeping a little better, usually from 8 to 4, then from 4 to about 6, which is helping my sanity a TON. It makes such a difference for me to get one solid block of sleep, even if it's only 6 hours. (I know that's a lot in "mom" time, but I'm still used to much more than that!).

It's a bummer that Ben and I don't get more time to spend together, because after Amelia is asleep, I'm usually right behind her. I would love to stay up and read, watch movies or t.v. with Ben, or BLOG, but I know it's best for me to go to bed and get as much sleep as I possibly can to get through the next day. Everyone keeps telling me that I will get used to less sleep, and that, as long as I am a mom I will be tired, and I totally get that. That is precisely why I go to bed as early as possible, every night. :-)

I have friends who may be reading this blog who do not have babies but want them, and I want them to know that I am not ungrateful in any way for the blessing that I have been given. I thank God constantly for Amelia. At night, as I am reading to her, or singing songs to her that I dreamed about singing for 9 months, I cry tears of joy as that sweet baby stares into my eyes. I squeeze and love on her about 100 times a day, just brimming with gladness. I really can't put into words how much I love my baby. MY baby. But as much as I love her and am thankful for her, it doesn't mean that it's easy, and that becoming a mom hasn't been a really hard adjustment. I choose to be honest and say exactly how I am feeling, because I'm guessing there are a ton of moms out there who feel the same way that I do, but don't feel like they can say anything. And I want moms to know that they can say how they feel...being honest is nothing to be ashamed of.

I don't think I have post-partum depression, or need any medication. (Although I wouldn't turn down some heavy drinking every now and then. No wait, sleep is better.) I'm just tired. And a struggling new mom. And that doesn't make me a candidate for treatment or therapy. I'm just doing the best I can, which more often than not is pretty okay.

So, thanks. Let's keep the convo going, because the Lord knows there are gazillions of people out there who just need to feel that they are not alone. And if my struggles can help someone else, then it's all worth it.

Of course, it's worth it.

HOLLA -