I Made the Squad!

The other night, I had a dream that I made the Chiefs Cheerleading squad. Woo! Where did that come from? I have no idea. Anyway, I was pretty excited. I got to go out on the field in this pretty, sparkly outfit, and dance dance dance! The only problem was, I didn't know any of the routines. Everybody else knew exactly where to go and what to do but me. I was Fa-reaking out. I was so afraid that the coach was going to kick me off the squad, so I just ran around asking all the other girls what to do.

This is very similar to another dream I have every so often, where I'm back at my high school auditorium. I am playing a big part in a musical, and it's opening night. Everyone is ready, in their costumes and places, and I realize that I don't have any of my lines memorized at all. It's a terrible dream, full of stress and anxiety. The weird part is that I never get to the performance. I never got to it in my cheerleading dream, either.

I wish I knew what this meant. I wonder if it's my anxiety about going back to school/work playing out. In just two weeks, we will be dropping Amelia off at daycare and I will be going back to St. Paul's. I am excited, nervous, sad, scared, joyful...just about every emotion you could think of that, all wrapped together, makes your stomach turn.

I have definitely discovered over this summer that I am not the "stay-at-home mom" type of gal. I love being home with Millie, but I just can't see myself doing it indefinitely. That being said, I'm sure I'll be a blubbering mess on the first day of school, counting down the hours until I can get in the car and rush to daycare to get that sweet baby and love all over her.

It's really just the fear of the unknown at this point, but I know we'll get into the swing of things so quickly, and our routine will be no sweat.

Until then, I guess I'll just keep having weird dreams.

I wonder if Chiefs Cheerleading auditions have started already....

SIKE!

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