I'm sorry to tell you that Ben and I did not go to a fancy party on New Year's Eve. We did not dress up in our finest duds and drink champagne and throw confetti at midnight. We spent the day at my parents' house, celebrating our fifth (and LAST!) Christmas. I hate to be biased, but my immediate family's Christmas is my FAV-OR-ITE. Being with my parents and my brother and his family is as good as it gets, and good food, good laughs, hilarious games, and lots of presents don't hurt, either.
After the big celebration, we went home, put Millie to bed, and then I sacked out about 10:30. Yes, I left my husband alone in front of the t.v. to celebrate. I know! I am a terrible wife. I didn't even care about staying up until midnight - I must have had some intuition that I would be up bright and early with a certain someone the next morning. :-)
Tonight, on our way to dinner, Ben asked me if I had made any resolutions. After rambling on for a few minutes, I finally spit out the two things I want to work on in 2012. They go hand in hand, really - the first is change. This morning, our pastor preached on change, and how it's never too late to move from point A to point B. Just because you've "always been" a certain way doesn't mean you "always will be" or "have to be" a certain way. The Holy Spirit is constantly moving us to change for the better. There's always room to grow. (Except on the waistline of my pants. There is no more room to grow. Especially after eating at Red Robin tonight. Steak fries dipped in ranch dressing=no more room.) I'd love for you to hear the sermon because it was so good - if they post it online, I will add a link here.
Secondly, I told Ben that I wanted to be less selfish. I readily admit that, 9 times out of 10, I think of myself and my needs before others. The last thing I want is to be inconvenienced by someone else. Becoming a mom has given this mindset an eternal shift, or more appropriately, a seismic rupture. But, in relation to the preceeding resolution, I need a LOT more work in this area. I want God to shift my focus from my own needs to those of others. Carrying a load for someone else certainly feels better than carrying my own, or at least, helps me to forget it.
So, there it is. I am looking for growth and change in myself, as I always hope to. I welcome any of you to keep me on the path, and help remind me of my goals. And as much as I am moved to change, I want to encourage others to change and grow as well, always for the better.
Speaking of change, I leave you with a photo of my new haircut. As I have experienced here, change is startling, shocking, messy, uneasy, hard to manage, hard to get used to, unpredictable, moves me to curse, and requires a lot of work.
And BED HEAD.
HAPPY NEW YEAR HOLLA -
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